Wednesday, December 20, 2006


ahhh i got two As!!! i'm absolutely happy!!!! I haven't gotten two A's in so long. I'm so ecstatic I did not get a C. Still one grade pending but that is definitely not going to be bad!!=D =D

I've been watching lots of TV at home. It's kind of ironic. I love the makeover shows. So basically I watch other people improve their lives while I sit on the couch in my pajamas. I'm really impressed and think 'wouldn't it be nice if someone could inspire me like that?' then i just eat more chocolate/food and watch another show. yay! I'm so lazy if I don't plan anything. I always need something to look forward to. Normal people go hang out with her high school or old friends. Truth is though I don't have any that I was really close to that we make an effort to hang out. Too bad. I've never had a close group of friends before college really and I think when I was five. Eh. That's way too depressing to talk about.

I think I'm more of an acquaintance person. I know lots of people and am excellent at small talk. If I see someone after a long time at a party/gathering, I have no problem talking, but we don't keep in touch in between. They don't make an effort and neither do I.

There is a select group of people I've known since practically birth. There were four of us that were the same age. We do not talk outside of seeing each other's families at things. When we were little we were close in proximity and as friends. Then we moved away and whatnot. You know scratch the fact that I don't make an effort. I do. I sent one of the girls an e-card for her bday b/c she never picks up her cell maybe she changed it dunno. She does not even acknowledge that I sent her a card - no nice email saying thanks sruti hope everything is great. That frankly pisses me off. You know she is also the favorite amongst all the parents because she acts soo sweet. poop on her. i think that is one of my problems. i try too hard to be nice to people who do not give a damn about me.

Sunday, December 10, 2006


aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my 15 page paper really really really sucks and i'm stressed like no other. damn damn damn why is it 40% of my grade. shoot me now. ok just sharing.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Dancing in front of an Audience

Is it wierd that I don't mind performing in front of a group of strangers but I hate performing for my friends or family? you would think it should be the opposite.

i feel all this pressure to be really good when i perform in front of people i know. i realllyyy want to show them, but I get so antsy and nervous I usually end up messing up or freaking out. It's semi stage fright. I love performing - it's the best high ever! seriously, your adrenaline is pumping and you just give it your all. but for some odd reason i am so afraid of what my friends think. damn high expectations.

I also don't mind going in stage as part of a group but a solo eek. It's something I'm slowly working on getting over. I cannot let one bad experience marr future opportunities.

This applies to all parts of my life. I would do so much better in my classes if I didn't have grades. I have got to learn to handle things under pressure. I get crushed too easily. I must put myself out there. ::repeat incessantly::

this semester i took a dance class - learned some ballet and hip hop. so much fun! tomorrow i'm performing. i hope i can control my incredibly long spaghetti arms...they're like rubber bands flailing all over the place.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

The Dilbert Blog: Why is Music Legal?

Very funny post by Scott Adams...Why is Music Legal?

Why is Music Legal?

Sometimes I wonder why music is legal. Music can alter your mood and your body chemistry just like any illegal drug. The fact that it goes into your body through your ear shouldn’t make a difference. We take drugs via practically every other hole in our body – mouth, butt, eyeballs, nose – you name it. Ain’t nothing special about an ear.

Music is clearly unsafe. Suppose you’re in a perfectly good mood and a depressing song comes on. That could make you sad and break down your body’s natural defenses. You could get sick and die. Thank you very much Tori Amos.

Many songs are dangerous to hear while operating a motor vehicle. For example, anything by the Doobie Brothers will force me to exceed the speed limit. You probably have your own songs that make you speed. If you believe in free will you might argue that people always have the choice of NOT speeding. But by that reasoning it should be legal to allow drunks to drive because they have the choice of not doing it.

Let me put it another way. If gum made people more likely to speed, you know there would be a law against chewing and driving. If it goes into your body through your mouth, it’s a drug. If it goes in through your ears, it’s entertainment. That seems random to me.

One way you know you have a drinking problem is if it affects your work. I don’t know about you, but if I have a song stuck in my head, it lowers my I.Q. by about 40 points. I can sometimes do two things at the same time if those two things are easy, such as humming and walking. But if I’m trying to write a blog post or read a licensing contract, a song in my head will turn me into a chimp. Case in point – I have a song in my head right now and this post sucks.

Don’t forget – music is a gateway drug to harder stuff. Music attracts dancing. Dancing attracts alcohol. Alcohol leads to unwanted pregnancies. Unwanted pregnancies lead to abortion. If you believe life begins at conception, you have to believe that music kills babies.

And then there’s the corrosive effect of hip-hop music. I enjoy a lot of it, but after hearing three tracks I have an urge to slap a ho. That can’t be healthy, especially for the ho.

Just to be clear, I don’t think music should be illegal. I just think it’s somewhat random that it isn’t.

Scott Adams is GREAT!